talked with a friend today about a lot that has been going on. hard conversation. she is part of the "community" that i am leaving. but she is also part of the "greater community" that will be remaining in my life. part of that "nomadic community" that i mentioned before.
overall, it was good to talk with her. she's even more etherial that i am. she is able to examine the nature of "god" with liberal strokes i haven't even thought of yet. we discussed the possiblity of god simply being math. reason being : math is one of the only things in our world that you can know for sure. it is always true; neither good nor bad. just right. i was like, "i'm weird, but god is math?" i shrugged my shoulders and was like, "sure. i'm up for anything these days . . . wacko."
but she may have a point. math seems to comprise all that is in the known world. i did bring up the idea of the feelings of "connection" that i feel with some people and not with others; is that math? is that god? can one create emotions simply by puting numbers together? just sounds a bit far fetched. but i'm open.
in other news, i have decided to remain in my field of study and practice. i am a muscular skeletal therapist (of sorts) under the umbrella of "massage therapy". i'm just facinated with functional anatomy and how people can find greater balance in their bodies through postural/structural changes. as well as the mind/body connection we all have (decisions, emotions, breathing); and what effect that has in helping create those postural/stuctural changes. i'm currently going through about 4 or 5 coures to renew my lisence. some of the books are lame. some are very inspiring. but i do know that in the future i will need to find some complimentary modalities to what i do; i work prety damn hard (physically) to get the results i get. just wears a guy down after a while. i'm sure other stuff will begin to fall into my path as i continue to look.
i am interested (in the future) in looking into what some call "energy" work. i like it and it also scares me. it's feels less like math. less certain. more up for interpretation. that's difficult for me. i like results you can count on. but if i'm honest with myself, i know that, in large part, "energy" work is already within the work that i do. it's just not the focus. and i'm sort of uncomfortable confessing it; mainly because the field of "massage" is already filled with a bunch of nut jobs and very few strangers who come to you want to hear that you're "moving energy" or anything like that. so, telling them that we are working on becoming more aligned (structurally / posturally) just feels more safe.
may the journey continue . . .
[i am detecting the slightest hint of hopefulness as i am writing this. it's a feeling i haven't had in some time. spooky. like math.]
2 comments:
It's good that you have hope--it is always there, whether you realize it or not.
Interesting ideas John. I guess if God is truth and the math is true...
And I do think those 'feelings' are God -joy, love, peace, kindness, etc. are fruits of the spirit --and aint fruit just as much part of the tree as the tree itself?
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